Prinsesang Rakista

feelings and emotions changed,
doesn't mean that if you dont feel something for each other anymore, the love is gone
if love is only a "feelings", then there's no such thing as everlasting
love can sometimes turned numb or even boring
you just have to be patient
coz love itself is life
not all the time you were in -- its happiness
sometimes you also have to give in to its bitterness
but no matter what as long as YOU CHOOSE AND DECIDE TO CONTINUE it will be more beautiful..

from:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uTVwbaKVUSU&feature=player_embedded#at=749

May 16.. This is one of the saddest moment of my life. I never expected that I will ever feel this pain in my entire life. I'm strong outside but in fact I am very weak inside. I'm always misunderstood of what my real personality is. Maybe because I'm too intimidating and not friendly, seldom go out with friends. It's me. Because of this, now I'm falling apart. No friends to go to, to talk to, to share thoughts and feelings. But I'm trying to move on. I have shared this to my few friends. God and my family is helping me to cope with this mess. This is the first time I undergo this painful situation that's why I do not know how to move on from here. It's funny how God gives His messages to me, even in Facebook, Twitter and in my dream. =).

from Facebook..
.. that it's time you let go. Yes, of course, you want to control so everything happens in just the way you want it. But at the end of the day, we control nothing, - it's all in God's hands, - has always been, and will always be. So, do what you can, and then let go, and let God handle the rest.
from Twitter..
A great relationship is about two main things. First, find out the similarities. Second, respect the differences.
I may regret the way we ended, but I will never regret what we had.
I had a dream last night with a song that is very clearly playing titled "Maghintay Ka Lamang" (Just Wait), I can't even remember how I last heard this song.. But clearly this is a message of God from me..

Kung hindi ngayon ang panahon, na para sa iyo
Huwag maiinip, dahil ganyan ang buhay sa mundo
Huwag mawawalan ng pag-asa, darating din ang ligaya
Ang isipin mo'y may bukas pa,na may roong saya

Kabigua'y hindi hadlang, upang tumakas ka
Huwag kang iiwas, pag-nabibigo
Dapat nga lumaban ka....

CHORUS:
Ang kaylangan mo'y, tibay ng loob
Kung mayrong pag-subok man
Ang liwanag ay di magtatagal,
At muling mamamasdan
Iko't ng mundo, ay hindi laging pighati't kasawian
Ang pangarap mo ay makakamtam,
Basta't maghintay ka lamang

I can't say that I can be happy in few weeks time but I hope that whatever the wound it caused in my heart would heal very soon and I just want us to be happy. I always tell my friends that God will never give you something that He knows you can't handle. But now I'm in the very same situation, I can't even comprehend what I'm saying. My heart always opposes my brain. I don't want to fail Him. He's like my boss, he gave me this because He knows I can make it through with flying colors. I want to get through this for myself. I want to love myself more importantly. I guess God wanted something better for me. A gift wrapped in a very big fancy wrapper. That when I open it, He knew that that gift is the most precious gift that I will never forget and be thankful for my entire life.

Well, I've been afraid of changing

..so I went down from work at exactly 9pm to avoid the hassle of waiting in line, but the service provider came late so therefor i still waited in line. feeling: disappointed

We now need to pass C5 but the driver found the traffic heavy so he opted pateros which traffic is much heavier. feeling: pissed off

I thought the worst is over but i was wrong, we were stuck in the same location for almost 15minutes already and we were only halfway to where I should be. feeling: loser

30minutes had already passed and we only moved 10 steps from where I am 15minutes ago and I really need to pee. feeling: hopeless

There is no way i could get to my friend's house so I called her to tell that I will be just going to my house instead of her waiting for me to come when I know it would be very late.

I felt bad, bad, bad, i was left with no choice at all.

I can help a friend , if there's no traffic.

I can wait in traffic, if i don't need to pee.

I still cannot believe i was in front of our house, impatiently getting down the car and going to the cr.

How unlucky I am. I took off my blouse and threw it in my bed then i noticed something in it that i never noticed before.

At the back of the label says "God Loves You".

I'm very surprised. I have the blouse for almost 4 years now but that was the first time I saw the tag.

All the bad feelings was blown away cause I know God loves me.

I just started going to gym last February 3. At first, I was hesitant because I'm not sure if I'm going to achieve what I want if I go to gym.. which is ofcourse to lose weight. Well, there's no harm in trying. The first session I had was with a personal trainor named Jericho. Yeah, ofcourse he's good but only the first session is free and if you one to have one you have to pay and really it will cost you a lot. So what I did is I search the internet and find routine that will be my guide and fortunately I found some. They are called "full body work out" which targets your full body in losing weight. I learned a lot while searching on the topic and here are few things;

• don't waste so much time in doing cardio excercise because it will not work if you want to lose weight
• eat more excercise more to increase metabolism
• you have to eat before and immediately after you work out
• you must do one excercise per muscle group per day
• ideal time to work out is 3 days in a week approximately 1 hour excluding warm-ups (workout,rest,workout,rest,workout,rest,rest)
• and most especially you must establish goal when you work-out.

So if you are planning to go to gym and work-out, you must prepare your self as this will be very tough. I believe that if you stop it, it will just make you more fat. Just enjoy and make it a habbit.

I expected that I willl adore this book much. Its the first time I have read a book of Stephanie Meyer. And I would say that I love her. Twilight is the book 1 her creation Twilight Saga. Three of which are the New Moon, Eclipse and Breaking Dawn. I'm looking forward in reading those 3 after I have finished the first one.

"It was very... hard.. you can't imagine how hard for me to simply take you away, and live them....alive"

That is one of my favorite lines in first few chapters of the books. Its a triller love story about a mortal and a vampire. Though there are differences among them, they still manage to like and eventually love each other despite the fact that they will be going to expect challenges along the way. I can't help but feel the emotions of the characters, so strong that I can't stop myself from reading it. I think I will be going back to my old habbit of reading until morning just to finish the entrire book. I hope not of course. I dont want to be like Edward (the main character) that do not sleep. LOL. I will not go through of its summary here. Its all over the net. Just google or yahoo them. Price are also very affordable. I bought it for PHP650.00 only, the other 3 books also range from PHP500-PHP700 for hard bound. I would recommend these books for all ages, especially to those fiction fanatic like me. Aside from that it will be shown in movies on November 26. So better read it before watching. Enjoy.

Yahoo! Today is Saturday. This the day I await every week. I always look forward to this day because this is the were I can spend time for my love ones and for myself also. I do lots of things during Saturdays and Sundays also;

SATURDAYS

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Sometimes I wake up as early as 6:00 to have a morning jog or badminton or swimming with my sweety for almost 2 hours and so, then after back to sleep again.
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When I'm not going to jog, I wake up 9:30 in the morning, open my friendster, mails and other accounts like blog? hehe.
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Eat breakfast around 10:00 and have a little chit chat with my mom about few events when I'm still asleep
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Clean my room while talking to my sweety on the phone at 11:00 for about 30minutes
Take a bath and leave the house at 12 noon or 1pm
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We go around the mall, parks, and other places and go back home at 8 or 9 in the evening
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Have a dinner with the whole family
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At 10:00, be back at my room, check again my friendster, mails and other accounts
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From this time on till in the morning, I play guitar, listen to music, read books until I went to sleep. Most of the time 3Am

SUNDAYS

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I wake up at 10am, take a bath and have breakfast together with the whole family
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Back again in my room and check friendster, etc.
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When its already 12nn, I watch my favorite tv series - CSI up until 3pm
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I read books until 5pm then watch again either tv - ANIME or dvd.
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Have dinner at around 60r 7 until 8
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Back again to my room to do my stuff until morning. On Sundays, I usually upgrade my scrapbook and/or my ipod.
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I sleep at around 12 or 1 since I will be going to office already the followwing morning

These are my routine every Saturdays and Sundays. I have lots of things going on my mind that
I want to do but I guess 2days is not enough. But still, Im trying to manage my time carefully so that all those will be successfully done. I always feel fulfilled everytime I have done extraordinary everyday in my life. And for me, that's already an achievement because I have strongly believe that I've grown in some ways.

I never thought that I'll be able to buy an SLR camera. I'm just an average girl, working in a bank as an accountant, living a very normal yet happy life. January of 2007, I saw the photos shot by my officemate in our Christmas party. I was so amazed especially with those stolen shot he took of my friend. From then on, I thought of buying one also. I started looking from stores to stores to find the same camera he was using and I was surprised of how much it cost (whew!). But guess what, it has never become a hinder because I know in my heart that I'd be happy if I could have one. Months have passed and I still do not have the courage to buy it for the same reason that it is so expensive. Upgraded cameras have been released already and costs are even higher from the original one. What now? I thought that its not time so I just let go of the time and forget all about the camera. One day, I passed by my officemate's workstation and I saw him surfing the net (Ebay). He told me that he was looking for an ipod. Instantly, the idea of purchasing in ebay snap out of my mind and right at that moment I look for cameras for sale. Fortunately, I was able to find the latest camera at a very low price. Many thanks to my best friend that she lend me cash on that day. Now, I'm pretty much sure that even though it's way beyond my average spending, it brings happiness to me especially when I took nice shots.